If I could think of one word that describes 2014, it would be breathless. Breathless like a fish out of water gasping for air in the face of death. Breathless like standing on top of the himalayas so high up that it feels like I can touch the clouds. Breathless like the magic of shooting stars showering up high in the night sky.
I ushered in 2014 with anticipation of change. My year started with by 40th birthday celebration. I decided that when I turn 40, I would like to celebrate it with people that meant the world to me. My birthday started with a dinner with my beautiful children on the eve before. Followed by lunch and then dinner with close friends and a surprise cake lit in a dark room when I arrived home. Without a doubt, my 40th birthday was simply magical. My birthday party was at none other than Marini’s on 57th….up high on top of one of the tallest restaurants in the world with 15 of my closest friends. Seeing all my good friends together in one room was breathless!
Travel was a major theme in 2014 for me. Florida with my family that made be feel like a breathless child giddy on the roller coasters. New York, the city that never sleeps that mesmerised me with its vibrant ways. Sydney with a dinner cruise that left me with a smile and with new friends. Snorkeling amidst beautiful fish in Koh Li Pe was an amazing experience. And the last but not least, Nepal with one of my best friends was simply mesmerising. At that very moment, I felt like I was standing on top of the world- almost literally!
2014 also saw me going through a spiritual phase. It saw me examining my own religion and various other religion around me. It led me to the conclusion that religion is morphine for the masses. It led me seeing that it did not matter what religion one belonged to- but what mattered was what lies in your heart.
It goes without saying that 2014 saw me doing a fair bit of charity work. The joy of helping a friend cook food and feed the poor and homeless is yet another breathtaking feeling. Raising money to promote the status of women in society and helping organise a forum for women to learn about their rights were fulfilling experiences.
Of course, the glitz and glam of 2014 was not without some tragedy. 2014 saw me with a cervical cancer threat. The biopsy thankfully turned out to be benign but left me with the sad knowledge that I am one of those persons with a high risk of cervical cancer from a virus that I contracted from my ex-husband. The pain and frustration made be feel breathless and hopeless.
2014 saw me battling with a bad back with painful mornings. This however, led me into a more healthy lifestyle and a new love for exercise!
2014 was a year which taught me that “I” am important. I learnt the hard way, that I needed to think about myself and what I wanted out of my life over others in order to find my own happiness. And so 2014 saw me cutting ties that were toxic and painful as it was, I let go of friendships that dragged me down. As much as it may seem selfish, it was a necessary evil.
Last but not least, 2014 showed me love. Without a warning, love landed on my door step – when I least expected it. It showed me how it felt to be loved unconditionally. It made me see that true love was easy and not hard. It made be feel truly breathless.
As a Malaysian, 2014 has been a trying year. 2014 was plagued with racial and religious dilemmas. 2014 saw airplanes go missing with our loved ones on board. 2014 saw massive floods wipe out our homes and destroy lives.
2014 with all its highs and lows, made me breathless……… and leaves me waiting for 2015 with bated breath!